A State of Limbo

I constantly feel as if my life is in a state of limbo. Is it? Honestly, not really. 

I have a job, I have a roof over my head, I have food to eat, I have a family and amazing boyfriend that love me unconditionally.

(I said unconditionally, right?... I certainly test those waters a lot.)

My lease is going to be up in just a few months, and I'm trying to figure out what to do. I don't have anyone that is particularly like to live with, with the exception of Dustin. But that's out of the question to him. I've looked for a place of my own, but clearly that's impossible to afford. So, do I move home? Do I leave the life I dreamed of having? Do I leave the absolute love of my life, and struggle to make long distance work? Or do I live with strangers or my same roommate and her friend? 

I'm at a crossroad, or a state of limbo. I feel torn in so many directions, and not one answer is the right answer. 

I miss my family like hell, and just want to go home most days. On the other hand, no matter how shitty work can be, or how hard it gets, Dustin is worth it. I've met my perfect match, and I'm much too afraid of leaving that. 

I feel like no matter what I do, or what I say, I'm always hurting someone. I'm learning to just keep my worries and feelings to myself. I don't want to hurt anyone just because I can't figure my life out. 

I guess only time will tell. I just hope I'm happy.